Forgive me...this post may go all over the place, as I am sitting here listening to Bach, and I have to admit, feeling quite relaxed.

I think that's the difference between me now, and me just a mere 3 weeks ago. I have the confidence to relax. I don't feel as though I have to be useful, I can just veg out and people will like me. Just these past couple of weeks have been incredible. All this time, I never focused on the one person I should have looked after these last 26 years, myself. I've noticed that the little things, like my mood, has picked up. I'm a lot more cheerful now, and have a more positive attitude on life.

However, don't get me wrong, I could still walk up to a stranger and blow his or her brains out with glee as well. Speaking of which, are we really this stupid? Are we this fucking blind? We have a war in Iraq that has cost who knows how many lives, we have a media that is outrightly lying to us and trying to make us vote one way or the other, we have an education system that makes most people want to cry, and so on. Why is it that we can't get past the petty differences in our lives?

Some people try to live WELL above their means, yet, they are victims? We are at war with each other, over what? Race? Economics? Religion? Ethics? Come on people. This is what the government wants. They want us fighting each other, so this way, we won't be bringing the fight to them. We need someone who can unite this country, so the true frauds can be brought down.

Do you really think that Hillary Clinton is that much different then Bush? How many of you are actually stupid enough to believe that Democrats and Republicans have different ideals? If so, there is a wood chipper I would like for you to get into. The truth is, they are the same bullshit, they just word their bullshit differently.

Since when does everything have to be politically motivated? I'm sure if a Republican came out and said "we could save 60 billion by reforming welfare" some Democrat would call that politically motivated. Look,I'm sure when that committee met and said that by 2015 Iraq woul cost us around 30 Trillion, they aren't really that far off. We have been there for over 4 years, and we are nearing the 10 billion mark now. For what? Some kitty litter on top of millions of gallons of oil? I'm sure that if Darfur had as much oil as Iraq, that shit would have stopped years ago.

I think I went backwards, when I was younger, I was much, MUCH more conservative. Yes, you could still consider me a conservative, but since I don't drink the Kool-Aid that Pat Robertson gives out made of Jerry Falwell's dead bloated carcass, and I don't drop to my knees to blow Bush every time he has a boner, I'm sure Rush Limbaugh and Ann Coulter would call me a liberal. You know what, that's fine by me. If the rules of being a conservative these days means you have to be a hypocritical Bible banger that doesn't like any other religion other than Christianity, then so be it. I'll be a liberal in that sense. It's disgusting to watch Republicans every year...and to an extent the Democrats too...all I see is who can bang the Bible harder, or who can lie the best. That's all we have any more in Washington, the best liar wins.

The sick part about everything is this epidemic of military personnel who come home, most of them from a tour or 18 in Iraq, and they kill themselves. What does Bush do about it? NOTHING. Get used to it, folks. You know why a lot of them go home and kill themselves? They see unspeakable horror. They see things that NO human should ever be allowed to see or do. Yet, Bush never cared, he never thought for one second what the price would be. Now, we have more broken homes then ever, we have more lives destroyed, we have uncountable sorrow in this country. For what, Mr. President? So we can keep oil under $100 a barrel, while more and more families lose jobs to overseas?

It has been time for a change...it is way past due.

Now, I must off to the chamber for a blissful night's slumber. Fare thee well.....